I’m sure Christian can explain this better, but there’s something about the velocity and difficulty of what you were trying to do in that paper that comes out clearly in your writing. That’s what makes us follow you with the allegories, it’s what makes grammar beside the point. Fittingly, the paper contains indices of your own ‘cracked’ subjectivity. It’s not quite together, the concepts deserve more elaboration some time in the future, but that’s what a breakthrough paper should sound like. This is my favourite moment in creative work. It’s what Stuart Hall once said he liked about some of his favourite writers - the book before they get to the point of their fully developed theory is usually the more compelling because it still contains the tensions and complexities that the final theory will try to smooth over and forget. It still contains the quirks of the writer’s ‘charm’. For me, it’s similar to seeing a band on the tour just before they ‘make it’. They’re still challenged by the process, they’re having a lot of fun while they can, but there’s still a sense of drive for something more. Once you’ve perfected what you’re trying to do, there’s less risk, less danger. The affect is less immediate, so the ideas are less contagious.